Where do we start with this?? in this one word ‘covid’ I can describe…
3 months of
Mixed emotions, tiredness, worry, self doubt, appreciation, guilt, anger, motivation, eagerness, impatience, judgement, pity and so much more.
This is almost endless, the words to describe the impact, devastation and life altering experience that has fallen amoungst us. Some are lucky some are not, come care too much or not at all. We have never experienced something like this before and its mind blowing and unfortunately the storm is calm at the moment but it has not left us.
Im not going to lie, I resembled a crazy woman at the start of all this telling people they were going to die, banning any kind of contact within 5metres never mind 2, preaching to friends and family constantly… not going to say im not like that now but my rictor scale has drastically reduced, because I was nearly off it.
I had never took something so serious in my life, and the more I was seeing people break the rules the more it was affecting my mind, I felt I cared about the people they came in contact with more than they did, I was starting to resent people and that’s not healthy.
Fast forward 17863 days in and im feeling better, my biggest problem is i need focus and stabilty, so i found them myself, i took a step back, a deep breath, and looked at my business, what i wanted from it in the future, read more books, watched more films, spend all day everyday with my kids, playing, art, tiny bit of school work.
Im glad iv had this time off, but im also glad to have finally gotten a date to head back to work, im so anxious, for what the new normal may be. our whole worlds have changed in an instance, i hope i have learnt from this in the way i think i have. I hope i have learnt to slow down, appreciate the now, spend less time worrying about all the things i have to do, we may and hopefully never have the opportunity at home like this as i hope something like this never happens again, time to appreciate what we have and move forward with that, we have all the time in the world to work but we dont have all the time with our kids and looking after ourselves.. reality checked…. noted.